I can’t believe that I am saying this but I am so glad that the holiday season is behind us. I LOVE the holidays and am usually sad when they end and we go back to the average humdrum of life without pretty lights, trees in our houses, sparkly decorations, and the excitement gift giving and spending time with those you love.
It is actually that last bit that kind of left me in a state of depressed madness during and after the holidays. Too much family bullshit this year! I won’t get in-depth about it but I will say that it left me feeling the way I feel when my husband has been put in charge of making toast. For some reason he thinks that a slice of bread just warm enough to melt butter constitutes toast. This is one of those silly things that couples fight about in our marriage because it infuriates me when he hands me a floppy, butter-soaked, chunk of wannabe toast. That is how I felt when I woke up on January, 2nd; as if my entire holiday season was a soggy, butter soaked, piece of fresh effing hell, rather than the slightly crunchy, toasty, golden brown delight that one expects the holidays, and toast, to be.
The only thing that brightened my mood about the whole mess was the fact that I got some of my favorite things ever for birthday and Christmas presents… gift certificates and money! I got other cool stuff as well but the $50 Blick Art Materials gift card I got in my stocking and the $50 cash I got from my mom with explicit instruction to spend it on art supplies were the neon lit ball of shopping therapy light at the end of the tunnel that I needed to put me right again (I also got a gift certificate to get the tattoo on my upper right arm finished but that is a different kind of happy all together).
I didn’t get to go spend my gift certificates until last week but as you can see, it was well worth the wait!

I adore casually walking around the art store, investigation new products, sniffing the soft pastels and pads of paper… feeling the paint brushes… daydreaming about what I could do with all the shiny new art supplies. I rarely allow myself to do this because I usually go in with a budget and specific list to stick to and too much perusing only leads to overspending or disappointment; but when you have $100 to spend and nothing you really NEED at that moment in time it makes the whole experience so much more pleasurable!
I did pick up a few things that I have been wanting for a while. I got a glass palette because I had heard they are much easier to clean acrylic paint from. I have been working on a series of tiny paintings (more about that in a few) and have found that I LOVE the glass palette. It is perfect and very forgiving of my habit of leaving paint to dry because I get too distracted to clean up my mess right away.
I also grabbed a couple of new brushes as I am a terrible abuser of paint brushes. I have been wanting to do some experimenting with Gouache for a long time now so I grabbed a cheap set to play around with (haven’t had a chance to do that yet). I also grabbed some Golden metallic paints and I must say; these are the most fantastic metallic paints that I have ever used. I grabbed a gold, silver, and copper and I cannot believe the coverage that they give! They mix very smoothly with other colors to create a bit of luster (I have been doing this in the series of bug paintings I am currently working on). I have found metallic paints to be very difficult to work with in the past but these perform flawlessly!
Of course I was suckered by the impulse gauntlet near the cash register but am proud to say I didn’t go crazy there… I grabbed five 2” x 2” canvases and five 2.5” x 2” because they were only 17 cents each. I have been looking at these for over a week wondering what in the hell I am going to do with them but was struck with an idea a few days ago and am in the process of putting them to good use.
As I mentioned in a post earlier this week, my friend is starting a nonprofit art group for children with Asperger’s and Autism; the organization is called “Little Bug Studio” so I have decided to paint a series of little bugs and donate them to her Etsy store that funds the nonprofit. I will post more about this later in the week as I have almost finished them but here is a little preview of these silly little paintings.

I have saved the purchase that I am most excited about for last. I think the first medium that I ever got serious about in my artistic life was soft pastels. My mom gave me a set of them when I was in high school, I am guessing that I was about 16 or 17, and were it not for a leaky basement after the “spring break quake” of 1993 I would still have many of those early drawings that I did.
I fell in love with everything about them; their texture; the way the smell, the way the feel against paper, the vibrant colors, and mostly the way they blend. I used that first set until they were literally tiny bits that I smashed into dust so I could paint them on paper with my fingers. Since then I have experimented and learned about many other media and I kind of forgot about them for a while.
Last spring I took a mixed media class in school and we worked with soft pastels; I instantly fell in love all over again. I learned a lot of new things about them during the class and came away grateful that my love for that media had been rekindled. It was around this time that I first heard of something called PanPastels. I think my friend Alicia mentioned them to me and suggested that I might enjoy them.
I remember looking them up and thinking they were a bit too expensive at the time and then I kind of forgot about them. Recently my friend Liz, who uses PanPastels to do beautiful pet portraits, reminded me about them and these were top on my list when I walked into the art supply store. I intended on grabbing a couple of colors to play around with and see if I like them before making a big investment but that Blick Art Materials location was in the middle of packing up for the move to their new location and all they had on the shelf was one $80 set of 20 colors and all the tools you need.
I walked around the store for almost an hour passing that section every few minutes. I went from the paints to the pastel isle, from the brushes back to the pastel isle, back to the paints and then the pastel isle… I walked to the other end of the store to look at papers, gave the canvases a onceover, got stuck at the sale table, and then couldn’t stand it any longer. I took a deep breath, walked to the back of the store, and grabbed that lonely box right off the shelf then hurried to the check out before I changed my mind.

I get an odd high feeling when I am in an art store, especially when I am making a purchase. Office supplies and the fabric store give me a similar feeling but nothing as powerful and exciting as art supplies. Because I tend to get wrapped up in this feeling I often lose track of my total before I get to the counter and this trip was no exception. Even after my student discount I was still almost $35 over my limit but thankfully my husband saved the day. Just as I was ready to put the PanPastels back he reached over my shoulder and handed the girl with the adorable dimples at the checkout his debt card. I whispered “are you sure” and he just shook his head and made a card swiping motion to the girl.
As we walked out of the store I told him that he didn’t have to do that and thanked him and he patted me on the back then said “baby, I caught you actually opening that box and sniffing it with your eyes closed three times… I can’t deny my smarty-farty art nerd something she wants that badly”. By this time we had arrived at our parking spot and were getting ready to get in the car. My husband, those of you who know me from Facebook know him as “Big Orange”, came around to my side of the car and gave me a hug and while he was hugging me he whispered “I love you which is why I have to tell you that you should really try and refrain from sniffing art supplies in public… you look insane when you do that”. And with that comment the last of my post holiday blues evaporated.
I haven’t used my PanPastels yet because I have had two projects going this month and I know if I get them out I will never complete the other projects. The good news is that I finished “Garden Party” last weekend and will most likely finish the “Little Bug” series this weekend so next week will be all PanPastel all the time! I can’t wait to show you what I have planned!